Added to this, I kind of retired from modeling a few months back so it's been a bit of a strange transitionary period where I've had to move from relying on my breasts for a living to using my brain, and I'd be lying if I said the thought of this didn't fill me with abject terror. I'm slowly getting used to it, but it's a massive culture shock. If anything, it's nice to hang out and meet people more on the same wavelength as me and I think with games I've definitely found my calling. It was so obvious, I don't know why I didn't start doing it earlier... but I guess there's a right time for everything, in the same way that it was the right time to leave modeling. It just felt right. That doesn't mean that I won't do the odd shoot every now and again (I just did an awesome one for Vice magazine), but my glamour days are well and truly behind me.
Not that I regret any of it. I wouldn't be where I am now had I not gotten into modeling, and I've had some awesome experiences and traveled to some mental places. Obviously I've never been the biggest fan of the industry as a whole, but that's not to say it doesn't have some good qualities sometimes. For me, I liked the whole process of creation, of all the work and ideas that went in to creating beautiful images. That was what kept me going. Plus modeling is pretty fun, you get to fart around wearing cool clothes and having your make-up done. On the flip side it can make you hate yourself a bit, which is why I wouldn't recommend it for everyone.
I guess I do feel a bit censored at the moment. Trying to strike a balance of speaking out and keeping everyone happy is a difficult one as I'm not necessarily the most tactful person in the world at the best of times. Blunt would be a better word. I call as I see and write what I think, which is what has gotten me in trouble recently. Hence the disappearing blogs. But you know, as amusing as it is for everyone, I can't keep airing my ills this way as that would turn me into Tila Tequila, and everyone knows she is a douche. So sorry guys, no late night batshit video blogs from me anytime soon. Don't do meth kids.
The past couple of months have been difficult, full of break-ups and unnecessary friendships and a lot of stress, and it's just been one of those times when I've really had to evaluate everything and decide what I think is important. I've literally had to sit and decide who my friends are and what I want to do with my life, which is hard for anyone to do. Most of us will only ever have a handful of true friends, and I'm just happy that I know who mine are now. I still don't know what I want to do with my life though!! Hahaha.
To be fair, this year has been an amazing year - I've achieved things I'd have never even dreamed of a few years ago, hell, even a few months ago. If someone had told the 11-year-old bug-eyed mega-drive-permanently-attached-to-my-arm little me that when I was older I would review games for a living I would have told them to shut up and stop talking mess. It's one of those dream things you think that 'real world' people don't actually do.
It's all happened so quickly. Gaming has just been one of those things where everything just seemed to click and things started happening straight away, there's so much cool shit happening and coming soon and I'm in a position now where I honestly don't know what's going to happen next - I don't know whether to smile or shit my pants. I only started doing reviews a little over six months ago, so there's still a lot about the games industry that I don't know, but I'm learning fast.
Going from being a casual but enthusiastic gamer to someone who has to play everything and review everything is pretty hard, but it's kind of an enjoyable hard. I'm pretty ambitious, so while I may just write for casual gamers at the moment, I hope to be more specialist in the future. Especially when it comes to RPGs and MMOs. Especially when it comes to zombie MMO's, did you guys hear about that?
Sounds. Fucking. Epic.
Anyway, I'm going to get a bit soppy here, and say thank you everyone who has ever read my blogs. I forget sometimes how many of you there are as to me it's just numbers on a page - it's hard to think of it in terms of actual people. It's still kind of weird that so many people are interested in what I have to say. Over 350,000 people have read these blogs now. That's insane, so thank you.
I think in the next couple of months my blogs will be moving to my website;
sim-wise.com (which will be up soon) but there will be an archive of some of the best ones from here on there. I'm looking forward to it as it will give me a lot more freedom and will be very much more games-orientated. I'll be able to post whatever funny pics and videos I find, and hopefully it will be a bit more interactive.
It's been a bit of a journey on here for anyone who's stuck with me since the days when I was just a little dork living in South Woodford, posting pictures of myself flashing trains and going on about how much I hated Russell Brand and WAGs. I hope I keep continuing to surprise and amuse you all. Haha.
Sim xxxx
Twitter !!!
I use facebook mainly, but I keep up my myspace...cause why not?
Ugh. Twitter. Worst thing. Why when websites are made more basic do they become more popular. Its just a status update website. Horrible. It dosent need to exist.
change kevins name to Lucky McFuckerton
This townnnn is coming like a Ghost town...
Another Coventry reference. ^
The first system I bought was a NES.
I wanted a megadrive or at least a snes cos my pals all had em but my dad was like...'well if they all have them you can play them at theirs and have something different (and cheaper) at home.'
So yeah I had an nes. all i remember is a basic mario game which probably exceeds any mario game since barring the go karting shit.
And I did spend most of my time playing on my pals megadrives and snes. every morning before primary school i'd go round and play sonic on my pals megadrive. i'd beat him and he'd start screaming and smash his (rented) games against the wall. he died of stomach cancer a few years ago. what's the fuckin moral in that???
i dunno...fuck nes fuck snes fuck megadrive just wait for xbox and ps59????
Cathedral Lanes was good when it was new? games workshop times were good for awhile, don't know if its still there though... :D and that massive umbrella cover thing outside, thats gone now.
Sounds like your having awesome times, any idea when you get to play the localised Final Fantasy XIII? SOOO CLOSE!